Ok so I know that a couple weekends ago God spoke to me and I know that He has an amazing man out there for me. But sometimes I just wonder how long do I have to wait. I have been single for over three years and I have not even tried to pursue a relationship because I know I want someone who is Christian and loves God and where I live there are not such men that are single any way.
I know that he will come along and it will happen in God's time ans not mine but I just have my days that I really miss the human touch of a man and would love to just have some kind of sign from God on about how much longer I will need to wait before the man He has for me will come into my life. I know that I need to be patient and that it will happen in His time and not mine but really it can be a lonely world when you don't have someone to hug you and hold you when all you want to do is cry.
And today is one of those days I would love to have that person. I really do not know why I want to cry so bad or why I want someone to hold me but I am extremely emotional today and I could just use a person to hug me and hold me. I know this feeling will past and I will not have the same feeling probably even tomorrow.
But every since I God told me He has a man prepared for me and I will meet him when God feels the time is right all I can do is wonder when that time will be and how far into the future it will be.
Well anyway I think this is enough of that. I don't want to sound like I am unhappy in my life because really I am not because God has been amazing to me. He has put wonderful Christian friends into my life and I am so grateful for them and He has brought me closer to some of my family members and He has shown me that I can totally be alone and it will be ok because He will provide me my needs. He has also taught me to be faithful to Him and as long as I am faithful then I will see the difference between my needs and wants.
I truly do serve an awesome God and I am glad that He has chosen to love me also.
Thank you God for being an awsome God.