Ok so I know that a couple weekends ago God spoke to me and I know that He has an amazing man out there for me. But sometimes I just wonder how long do I have to wait. I have been single for over three years and I have not even tried to pursue a relationship because I know I want someone who is Christian and loves God and where I live there are not such men that are single any way.
I know that he will come along and it will happen in God's time ans not mine but I just have my days that I really miss the human touch of a man and would love to just have some kind of sign from God on about how much longer I will need to wait before the man He has for me will come into my life. I know that I need to be patient and that it will happen in His time and not mine but really it can be a lonely world when you don't have someone to hug you and hold you when all you want to do is cry.
And today is one of those days I would love to have that person. I really do not know why I want to cry so bad or why I want someone to hold me but I am extremely emotional today and I could just use a person to hug me and hold me. I know this feeling will past and I will not have the same feeling probably even tomorrow.
But every since I God told me He has a man prepared for me and I will meet him when God feels the time is right all I can do is wonder when that time will be and how far into the future it will be.
Well anyway I think this is enough of that. I don't want to sound like I am unhappy in my life because really I am not because God has been amazing to me. He has put wonderful Christian friends into my life and I am so grateful for them and He has brought me closer to some of my family members and He has shown me that I can totally be alone and it will be ok because He will provide me my needs. He has also taught me to be faithful to Him and as long as I am faithful then I will see the difference between my needs and wants.
I truly do serve an awesome God and I am glad that He has chosen to love me also.
Thank you God for being an awsome God.
It is hard! I remember being there before I met Dan. I always said - If I would just know when then I could deal with God's timeframe...I just wanted to know when that time was. I am praying for you because I still know how it is...somedays when he is travelling I just wish he were home so I could have a hug or snuggle on the couch. I wish I could help - I will be praying for you!!!
ReplyDeleteI agree, it is really had to just wait and be patient! I too, had a hard time waiting...being a single mom for 5 (almost 6) years was tough. Hang in there...I think you have a great perspective on this! I will be praying for you!
ReplyDeleteWell, I don't really know about how that feels, but I do know about waiting on God's promise, we waited on Sam for 6 years or so. It truly was better getting him when we did instead of in MY timing. But it wasn't easy waiting on something I knew God had in store for me.
ReplyDeleteYOu get to rest in the fact that you KNOW you won't be alone forever, though! And for now, God gave you best friends, and that doesn't happen to everyone like it has happened for us.
Well...you could ask God to show you some guy wearing a neon green bracelet that says "Jesus Loves Me"...LOL! I was alone for about a year, and within that year I wasn't even ready for a relationship. Just know that it WILL happen, and you actually CAN ask Him for a sign...I did, and about fell off my chair when I saw that green bracelet there in all it's glory!
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